At my apartment complex…

Why is it that there always has to be a few that have to ruin things for others?  For instance, last night I went to bed probably around 10:30 pm or so.  I could still hear people out by the pool.  They are supposed to be out of there by 10 pm.  This morning after I got home from group, I took the dog out on his little walk we do, and all the chairs and a couple of the loungers are in the pool.  I was so irritated by this.  It just ruins things for everyone around here.  I wound up calling the office before they opened and let them know what I saw.  I left the message anonymously.  But here lately, we’ve been hearing a lot going on out by the pool.  I guess they are just going to have to lock it up at 10 pm and reopen it at 10 am everyday.  It sucks that they would have to do that, but maybe people would learn.  Maybe not, but you never know.

Anyway, that’s just my vent for today.  It just really irritated me.  Have a great rest of the day.  I think I’m going to go watch my son play softball tonight.  Maybe I can talk to Melissa to see what’s going on with the job too.  That would be nice to know if they are really going to hire or not.

Encouraging Word

This is the day the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.

~ Psalm 118:24, NLT

Nothing yet…

Well, I still haven’t heard anything from Melissa’s office.  I’m sure it’ll be a couple days, but I would really like to get in there and at least have an interview.  It would be nice to hear from someone that I’ve put resumes into.  Brian’s unemployment still isn’t coming in, it still says pending information.  It’s been 5 weeks.  I know it can take longer, but I’m wondering if Comet is being jerks and not sending in the information that Missouri is wanting.  That wouldn’t surprise me at all.

Well, Amanda is doing very well with her pregnancy.  She’s now at 29 weeks and getting big.  I’ll put a picture of her on here.  We know for sure that the baby’s name will be Isabelle Marie.  I just hope that Amanda and Brandon get married.  They really are cute together and you can really see that they love each other and the baby very much. 

Anyway, have things to do, talk to y’all later.

Encouraging Word

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

~ Psalm 19:14, NLT

Ok, I slacked last week…

Hopefully this week will be better.  Today is a totally freakin awesome day.  I got on facebook the other night and thought about looking up old friends from school.  I found an old girlfriend of mine that I haven’t seen or talked to in probably 25 years.  We just exchanged numbers and talked on the phone, it was so good to hear her voice.  She’s living outside of Chicago and has 3 kids ages 5, 4, and 2.  Here I’m gonna be a grandma and she’s just starting her life as a mother.  Crazy.  Anyway, she was telling me that they are having a girls weekend here in MO at Big Lake.  I haven’t been there since I was 16.  It’s 40 north of St. Joe.  She was telling me that I need to come out there this weekend.  I would love to, but I don’t know if I will be able to.  Maybe next year for the girls weekend.  She said they do this every July.  It would be a great time for me to share with her and her sisters about my life and how Jesus has changed me.  Wouldn’t that be awesome.  But I’m getting the feeling that I shouldn’t go this year.  Fleshly, I would love to go, but I feel in my heart that I shouldn’t, that it’s just not the right time.

OK, so then last night I get a call from my son telling me that his best friend’s step mom’s place of employment is looking for a new receptionist, which is a Drs. office.  Melissa, Justin’s step mom, asked me to email her my resume.  I did.  Not only did I email my resume, I sent a cover letter and references.  I guess they were noticing that I worked for a Cardiologist at one point and she said to Brian that, that is my shoe in, well and along with all my other experience.  But they liked the fact that I worked in a Drs. office before.  So pray that I at least get an interview and everything goes well.

Gotta run, have stuff to do.

Encouraging Word

Keep your servant from deliberate sins! Don’t let them control me. Then I will be free of guilt and innocent of great sin.

~ Psalm 19:13, NLT

Life…

Siblings…How do you deal with them?  I have one sister that is my half sister from my biological mother.  I feel as though she is really pissed at me.  Then I have my brother who I grew up with, we’re not close, but I’ve always wanted to be.  How can I change these relationships?  I’ve tried.  I think my sister’s pissed at me cause we basically kicked her out and told her she needed to find a place of her own.  I think if we didn’t she was planning on bringing her 3 boys up here and going to have them live in my small 2 bedroom apartment with us also.  I don’t think that would have been good at all. 

Anyway, let me give you a run down on what’s going on.  She moved up here from Louisiana to do her clinic’s at one of our local colleges.  I let her stay with me under the impression that she was only going to be here for about 2 weeks and she was going to move into her own apartment.  Well, the apartment that she wanted fell through and she just didn’t look anymore and just planned on staying here.  I kept “encouraging” her to keep looking.  Everything she saw was too small.  But for her price range, she wasn’t going to get any better.  So now she is paying almost double and living in a ritzy area and I don’t know how she’s going to pay the rent, but I can’t worry about that.  But we haven’t talked since she left my place so I have a feeling that she is pissed at me.  And that’s fine.  She’ll see that what we did was for her own good, but I hope she sees that what she did in the apartment area was stupid too.

Encouraging Word

Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.

~ Romans 12:12, NLT

Today was a nice day…

Brian and I had a very nice day together.  We didn’t actually leave the house till 2 pm, but we went out to his moms and visited her for a while, had a very nice meal together, and are just staying in the coolness relaxing now.  It is hot as all get out today.  Sheesh!!!   It’s just blazin’ out there.

Gettin ready to do my treatment.  Brian will give that to me in my left arm tonight and we’ll see how I cope with things tomorrow.  My body has been doing pretty well with it lately, but you just never know how things are going to be.

I’m excited for my son.  He’s moving into an apartment with one of his friends next Wednesday.  I’m hoping I’ll be able to help him out with “decorating” in other words, just arrange things in a way that make sense.  Knowing him, he might ask me, who knows.  Anyway, they move in on the 1st and I know that he’s really excited about it.  I’m just proud of him.

That’s all for now, talk to you all later.

Encouraging Word

Praise the Lord with melodies on the lyre; make music for him on the ten-stringed harp. Sing a new song of praise to him; play skillfully on the harp, and sing with joy.

~ Psalm 33:2-3, NLT

Today’s group…

Every Thursday morning, I go to my women’s leadership group at 5:30 in the morning.  Yes it’s early, but I do enjoy our time together.  For the past 7 weeks we’ve been talking about Larry Crabb’s Soul Care 201.  This morning we’re talking about “The Seven Stages of Foolishness” and I believe it was in stage 7 “Bankrupt Foolishness” where he is talking about your later years in life.  Anyway there is one part in a paragraph that really struck me and I’d like to share it with you.  It says: “We must enter the souls of people knowing that foolishness is there and make alive the gospel message.  There’s forgiveness for all the foolishness, and there’s life that moves you in a very different direction; not toward the better life, making things work, but the better hope of knowing God intimately.” Then my coach asked where our intimacy with God was right now and I broke down crying.  I’m not intimate right now.  I think a lot of mine not being at that level, is from all the frustration I’ve been having with not finding a job, just being at home feeling worthless, not really depressed but getting there.  I don’t like this feeling at all and it is really aggravating.

I just had to share what I was feeling today and what my group was reading. It was great hearing everyone’s struggles with how their intimacy with God was at this time and that it isn’t just me.

Have a great day and I’ll talk to you all later.

Encouraging Word

He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.

~ Isaiah 40:29, NLT

What a night…

Holy cow…I couldn’t believe the micro-burst storm we had last night.  It was crazy.  Brian and I were sitting in our living room, he was playing a video game, and it sounded like someone had thrown patio furniture out by the pool here at the complex.  I looked outside and saw nothing out of the ordinary and said, “it sounded like thunder to me.”  He said, “It’s not supposed to rain.”  All of a sudden we here a huge clap of thunder, we looked at each other, opened the curtains and the rains began.  People were running from the pool trying to get their kids indoors and about 2 minutes into the rain, the electricity went out for about 10 to 15 seconds and all of a sudden the winds come on like a hurricane.  It looked like a monsoon outside our apartment.  The poor bushes outside looked like they were seriously on their sides.  It only lasted for about 5 minutes.  I had to be at the church at 6:15 pm and this happened around 5:45 pm.  By 6:00 pm the sky had pretty much cleared up and I headed to the church for group, which is 2 minutes down the road.  The church had no electricity so we called off group.  Around 9:15 pm we decided to go for a drive to see what the damage was since my daughter said she still had no electricity.  Well her apartment complex got a bad hit.  Not her building, thank God, but the office and one of the other buildings.  It wound up storming again late last night, but I think I slept through most of it.

Hope everyone’s having a great day.

Encouraging Word

…His brilliant splendor fills the heavens, and the earth is filled with his praise.

~ Habakkuk 3:3, NLT

Looking for work…

Looking for work isn’t an easy thing now days.  Companies have job postings out there, even if you qualify for what they’re looking for, you don’t get a call.  Then there are times that I wonder if maybe I’m over qualified for what they’re looking for, maybe I’m not, I don’t know,  I just don’t understand.  Oh well, I’m leaving it in God’s hands.  That’s all I can do.  But sometimes my faith isn’t that strong and I worry I’ll never find anything.  I’m really trying hard though.

Have a great day and talk to everyone later.

Encouraging Word

As we pray to our God and Father about you, we think of your faithful work, your loving deeds, and the enduring hope you have because of the Lord Jesus Christ.

~ 1 Thessalonians1:3, NLT

The Past 3 Months…

Well, the past 3 months have been adventurous.  I’m still looking for work and on June 5th my husband got laid of also.  So I guess the good thing is that we have no debt and don’t owe for anything.  But, I still worry about things.  Not badly, but the only thing I worry about is insurance.  We now have none.  So I’ve been in full force looking for work and I think once I have a job, Brian is going to go back to school full time to get his Psychology degree.  It’s what he’s passionate about.  When he’s done and has a job, I’ll quit mine and go to school full time and get my nursing degree.

It’s been forever since I got on my blog and I’m sorry.  I’m going to try to get on here as much as I can now and talk about what’s been going on and my feelings.

The treatments for the MS have been going OK.  I still have symptoms, but not as badly as they have been.  So I guess it’s helping out.  I think my body is adjusting to the treatments too.  They used to give me flu like symptoms, but I don’t have those any longer.  I’m still very tired, but I think that’s just normal.

Brian and I have started our diets again.  But this time we are really trying to stick with it.  We started on Friday (6/19/09) and so far I have lost 6 lbs.  I’ll keep you posted on the weight loss too.

Anyway, gonna get out of here and get the house straightened up, get what laundry I have done, and go sweat outside for a while.  Have a great day.

Encouraging Word

Here on earth, you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.

~ John 16:33, NLT

What a week…

Well I went into work on Monday at 7:15 am, my normal time I get there, then by 8:30 am, I was told that I was being laid off.  WHAT?  You’ve got to be kidding me.  I was totally shocked by the whole thing.  It wasn’t just me they laid off, there were 3 others in my office, 2 that I know of from the Overland Park office, and a total of around 45 to 55 company wide.  We were told in January that the lay offs they did at that time was it.  That’s why I was so shocked.  I guess I shouldn’t be.  I’m used to being lied to.  This isn’t the only job that promised stability to someone in my family.  Oh well!!!  But honestly, I’m doing just fine with it.  I’m going to collect unemployment for a while and keep looking for another job.  Maybe do something I really want to do.  It’s Gods call though, only he knows what’s right for me at this time in my life. 

With having a grand-baby coming up in September, I would love to stay at home and take care of him or her.  That would be tons of fun, and the bond would be unbelievable.

I’ll keep everyone posted on how things are going with the job hunt.

Right now we just did my 4th treatment.  Today was the full dosage.  I’m just dreading tomorrow.  That is the day I feel the worst.  It will be nice when my body adjusts to this.

Have a great weekend and hope next week is good too.

Love you all!!!  XOXOXO